My relationship with God

This article is not to hurt anyone's sentiments. I have just poured out mine. I have always been a believer in God. You see, that's how we grow up. We are made to believe in him. In some households, in a staunch way, in some, liberally. Yet, we have been made to believe in him. I for myself, was lucky to be brought up quite liberally as compared to others. I had the freedom to select my favorite God, and at times, wasn't even questioned if I wanted to visit  a church instead of temple or celebrate Eid along with Diwali. As I grew up, I started developing a questioning attitude, which in turn, changed my personality to quite an extent. Today, I find myself poles apart from what I had been,say 5 years back. My beliefs have changed, but what has remained constant is my belief in God. Yes, I do believe in the very existence of God. But I would like to disagree with things we humans relate to him. Religion, practices, idol worship,etc. I do look forward to ask help from God when I am in distress, or thank him for everything he has given me when I want to. But I don't follow the path that people say would connect me to him. I am a God loving person. I feel he's there with me all the time. But I don't have a favorite God any more. I don't have an image of him in my mind anymore. I don't believe in a Ram, Krishna, Saraswati or Parvati. I look forward to "God". Just " God". I feel he has given me the liberty to disturb him whenever I want to. Not just in the morning or evening. My God, just like me, wants to experience everything. He wants to eat a chicken bone as much as he wants to have sweets. He wishes not to be disturbed in the morning when he's sleeping. I strongly believe in God, but not the rules that people say, we have to follow in order to reach him. God has granted me a special privilege that directs me to him and along with the special privileges,come special treatment. I am my God's special friend,or so is what I believe. I don't feel the need to fast on Teej for my loving husband for his longevity. God tells me to take his extra care if I want to show him my love and concern. I don't need to have a Lakshmi Puja on Diwali for prosperity. God tells me to make others happy if I want to prosper. In short, my God tells me to improve my karma for my betterment. I don't have any grudge against those who practice their beliefs. After all, it's their choice. It's their relationship with God. But at the same time, I feel, I should not be nudged for maintaining my relationship with My God.